Deceit…

[An attempt to trace the inner voice of a deceived young girl…in her own words…]

I was an achiever…
A person accustomed to winning.
I trod my own path to success …
with a pace quite stunning.

I had my fences around me…
my heart placed well out of reach.
I had no exposed emotions…
for they were the only ways for a breach.

But it was not all too well deep inside…
it was a barren land where nothing felt alive.
There was a craving for some real life…
it was waiting for someone special to arrive.

That’s when he came into my life…
like dark clouds against the blazing sun.
He brought along a colorful rainbow…
and a quenching rain that was most welcome.

Now everything started to change…
colorful blooms of life everywhere.
With buds of new hopes of life…
there were blossoms and smiles everywhere.

I realized what I had really missed in my life…
I had found my perfect match after a long wait.
He was a true lover who showered me with delights…
he was a magician who made any tough bend seem straight.

But like it is always said…
for every start there will be an end.
It all started to slowly fade…
like the loom of darkness when sun starts to descend.

I slowly started discovering his true form…
He was a two-faced shammer.
When his true face was unveiled…
I realized tht he was an ugly cunning charmer.

Since then I have drowned myself in tears…
cursing my own self for my stupidity.
With memories of irreversible chain of events…
I am stuck in a loop of his atrocity.

Now I only hope for a miracle…
to revive me into a new life.
I hope I get absolved from my past sins…
and start a fresh new life.

-swaru…

Bliss!

Life suddenly finds its gleam,
Happiness has no bounds…
Its as if I am living my dream,
How wonderful that sounds!

When U are around me, girl,
Everything else falls behind…
But the fear of losing u,
Still not out of my mind.

Dont look into my eyes,
For, u may stay there forever…
Dont make me love u,
For, I may love no one else ever.

Leave me now, if u want to,
So I dont get lost forever…
Hate me now, if u have to,
So I dont hurt u later.

–Swaru…

This is how it is…

Its an abstraction,
A concept hard to define…
A deluge of facts and fiction,
But, a rhythm so divine!

It’s a puzzle, a riddle
And a deluding maze…
Although it’s an enigma,
It has its own daze.

It’s an abyss of problems,
With just handful of solutions…
It’s a test of one’s audacity,
And a measure of endurance and patience.

This is LIFE.
A journey so whimsical…
Laden with ineffable complexities,
It is still so magical !!

–swaru…

Here comes the 8th sem…

It was never the start of the 8th…
call it the end of semester number seven,
people call it the end of engg life…
I call it the edge of a student’s heaven.
It was time for fun…trips, treks and theatres…
In our minds, the idea of joy,
But, there was something waiting!
An issue called ‘project’ – The VTU’s ploy!!
With great deal of interest and enthusiasm…
we set off to hunt the companies down,
But what followed was disappointment and frustration…
Our dreams of stipend… bogged down.
Now, the eyes were on the ‘institutes’…
waitin to aid the students in disarray,
But, when our parents knew abt the prices…
we saw all colors on their faces – red, blue and gray!!!
Hence, we decided to believe in ourselves
and do everythin on our own…
The obstacle here…was our beloved “u-know-who”…
picture him as the dark knight’ s clown.
He had this wonderful idea…
I guess, the result of a brainstorm!!
When students were strugglin to find just one…
he wanted 3!!…is it madness of some form??!!!
So, the engineers started doing things…
which they were really good at,
Browsed the net, hit some links…
and pulled out things…from an empty hat!!!
Once again we engineers
proved that we are not silly,
we do just what is needed…
not more, not less and swalpa alli-illi.
–swaru…